Stepping out of a comfort zone.
If you have found yourself at this page then maybe you are stepping out of a comfort zone yourself. It is near impossible to go through this world ... without having labels ... it helps us to "think" we understand one another and what we go through. I have been labeled with Paranoid Schizophrenia. I don't always believe the label but when the "manic" or "dark times" come it is easy to see that there is something here that is gone through that not everyone in the world has the experience of. In many ways I liken the experience in the body as one that is on a perpetual pyschedellic. If you have ever had the gift of ingesting one then you are probably aware that there are things that are possible on a psychedellic that are not usually possible without one. However, if you have been diagnosed with a mental illness more than likely you know that things happen all the time that are not usual ... not within the "normal" framework of the current societial beliefs in what is possible. However, when interacting with the "norm" of society ... you quickly discover that your experience of it doesn't exactly match up or even come close. The thing is ... we are seemingly social creatures and so there is an impetus to reach out into the world and interact with it ... yet often when one does it is discovered that things can get pretty messy. You might find people quickly become aggitated or angered or become intent on fixing you, though you have probably spent a lifetime discovering the futility of that process. People often do not understand what is gone through or how you are experiencing reality and usually what people don't understand or experience for themselves causes fear or concern or again the attempt to fix whatever it is that is not understandable or experienced. All this to say that if you are feeling as if you don't fit in or have been labeled in such a way that the only way you "think" you can fit in is by taking some kind of pill or attempting to conform or control behavior ... then you probably will resonate with what you find on these pages. I have found that the use of the Internet allows for a kind of socialization that meeting in person does not often allow for.